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itni sakti hame dena daata.. man ka vishvas kamzor ho na..
hum chale nek raste pe hamse .. bhool kar bhi koi bhool ho na..
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Dream dreams no one else can see...

They say there is no meaning of your life if you don't dream..but if you get literally crapy dreams.. whadda life u've got!!!
Like the Bryan Adams song goes...
"Free is all you gotta be
Dream dreams no one else can see
Sometimes ya wanna run away
But ya never know what might be comin’ round your way ya ya ya..."
Yday I was up till 4am doing my 457 homework.. and when i slept finally i started dreaming about the course, the problems i was doing... can't recollect excatly but i did come up with a new crapy technique to solve one of the problems.. but who cares!.. Bac home when i was working i used to dream about my projects, my boss(:(( ), the deadlines, during the microstation trainiing toh i used to dream of teh snap points, the errors i did.... all the crap tht i had to take in the morning raat main bhi mera peecha kyon nahi chodta!!! :((
Wanted to read sigmund freud's "interpretation of dreams" before coming to TX but as usual i am too lazy to "read" anything..

Alai Pongeraa kanna...

Some people have such beautiful voice that once you listen them sing, that song reverbrates in your mind all the time. Yday i had the most "musical" drive of my life. And the " Alai Pongeraa kanna..." sang by nethra and smriti, i heard yday is still lingering in my mind..
I thot this wekend will be very boring,with a sketch of what all assignments and homeworks and readings to finish this weekend. But when i woke up on saturday,my room mate asked me if i would like to some to Austin!! and there i was in the car with amnay and nethra...two of the few people i met at TAMU who are absolutely passionate about music. We were going to Austin to pick up Mrs.Shirisha shahank - an upcoming star in bharatnatyam.It was a pleasure to be in company of an upcoming star in bharatnatyam,also the wife of a great fluteist, and nethra, who had the chance to sing with the likes of SPB.We started our drive with my all tiem fav "purani jeans aur guitar.." and loads of good hindi songs and on our way back we played some awesome flute, gutiar and yani!!When i woke up on sunday... my head was aching.. i guess too much of good music is bad for me :-P

Jhonka rita ka...

It all started with a mail frm the ISS :
"Be aware that the current prediction is for heavy rain, hail (balls of
ice that can range in size from 1/2 centimeters to 4-5 centimeters in
diameter), and winds of up to 60+ m.p.h. in College Station on Friday. "
Followed by a walmart trip... never in the wildest dream did we think that walmart wud run out of water and bread! After planning where to seek shelter in case of emergency and packing my backpack with all my "imp documents" and spending some 150 minutes on phone to family and anxiously following local TV channels for rita forecast...finally rita arrived and went off... with a few minutes of drizzle!!!
BUT..but... but... RITA did give us a loooooooooong weekend... and for me.. a reunion with my good freind from SAP'03 - vinita.(and the yummy south indian "ghar ka khana"):D .. desis all around my place..partied hard on friday... didn't see college station (well my world limits to casa del sol and cherry hollow!! )more relaxed before... almost every desi house full of people, movies, booze... and in 1103 casa del sol..veechi having a good sleep!! :) ... no homework no assignment this weekend :D.. but hav to catch up with teh term paper :((..
but did realised something this weekend... hav to either earn enuf money to tour all around teh world..or marry a richie rich :-P .. latter to hone se raha... so better work hard and earn some $$..(god are u listening!!!)
..thank god that we all are safe :)

Maroon and White!!

"The Spirit of Aggieland"
(Words by Marvn H. Mimms; Music by Richard J. Dunn)

Some may boast of prowess bold
Of the schools they think so grand
But there's a spirit can ne'er be told
It's the Spirit of Aggieland.
(Chorus)
We are the Aggies - the Aggies are we
True to each other as Aggies can be
We've got to FIGHT boys
We've got to fight!
We've got to fight for Maroon and White
After they've boosted all the rest
They will come and join the best
For we are the Aggies - the Aggies are we
We're from Texas AMC

(Yell sequence that follows; traditionally deleted at Muster)
T-E-X-A-S A-G-G-I-E
Fight! Fight! Fight-fight-fight!
Fight! Maroon! White-White-White!
A-G-G-I-E
Texas! Texas! A-M-C!
Gig 'em, Aggies, 1-2-3
Farmers fight! Farmers fight!
Fight! Fight!
Farmers, farmers fight!
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its a great feeling to be a part of a crowd of 98000 people!!!! And singing the spirit of aggieland. Midnite yell practice... a must experience phenomenon at TAMU... its better if u hav a date of ur choice :-P

Aggie nite!!

Thts the rock wall i climbed this friday nite at tamu's fabulous rec center. cudn't reach teh top, but felt good about climbing three fourths of teh wall..despite of slipping thrice :)

aftersometime i finally made up my mind..

sitting here in the blocker @ 7pm feeling hungry, humming 25 minutes by MLTR.. i finally thot i shud blog.
thn i realise the time is 8-15pm and i need to go bac home.. wud continue tomorow :d

sneak into the aggieland

The aggie ring..a proud aggie wears it everyday..u get it when u graduate frm A&M.. as a graduate student I need to finish atleast 30 hrs @ school to order that... thts made of gold and if u don hav money to buy it..there r scholarships for it!!! its a part of eth aggie network.. aggies wud recognise u with ur ring.. and u never know.. u may get a job coz u wore ur aggie ring!!! waiting to get mine :)

Maharaja waiting...

Maharaja of Air India is waiting for me to arrive and take me off to alien lands.The feeling of leaving all my near and dear ones and a living a dream.. i never thot wud come true.. is sinking in me now...
"I do not know beneath what sky nor on what seas shall be my fate;
I only know it shall be high,
I only know it shall be great."
Hopefully!!
I wud b making a long jouney after a gap of 7 yrs. wud be travelling 9780 miles in 22 hours.Reminds me of my second last journey to AP .. assam was cut off from teh rest of india ... and yeah coincidently it was teh same day in '97 i guess... no it was end of july... yeah so assam was cut off from rest of india due to heavy floods.. a very common thing for assame folks every year ... i n mom along with some valuables set out to reach hyderabad for the house-warming ceremony of our house... we reached guwahati frm jorhat.. found that trains wud move but frm bongaigaon.. n there is a free bus service to take passengers to bongaigaon.. we left our plans to take teh plane to calcutta (time bad ayte manam emi cheyalemu).. we got into teh bus.. a bus with a capacity of 30 ppl was packed with abt 100 ppl...with luggage..(read ppl as 80% army jawans.. n abt army jawans u hav to see to know how it is..)mom got panicky.. but we cudn't get out of bus so we stayed and let god decide our fate... in that rickety bus.. on that kucha road.. those 4 odd hours were in simple words hell....... to add to the spice.. one sweet elephant of teh village we were going thru decides to block our way.. and refuses to make way unless fed with some 2-3 gellas of bananas..... finally on reaching bongaigaon..(the railway station of which is smaller than bapatla's.. with just 2 platforms) there were hundreds of people trying to get into teh bus even before atleast half of us inside teh bus cud get out... teh driver got irrtated and kept moving teh bus back and forth to control teh tarffic... in this confusion mom got thrown out of teh bus .. i was stuck inside ... after some more hulla gulla i got thrown out of teh bus with my rucksack and a suitcase and a bag whose where about were known neither to me nor mom.. I was then one-third of what i am now .. we two finally after some fighting with teh traffic got together and frm god knows where some1 threw our bag at us.. we spotted an old kuli.. he said he wud lift our stuff.. but we had to see who wud lift him in case :P .. so at the bongaigaon station ... first time in our lives we saw a railway station with only 2 women on teh platforms -me and mom ... the train arrived.. got filled up.. we were guided by an angel in form of an air force officer .. whom we dared to believe on teh ground that he knew my mama (whoz also in air force).. and we three went to occupy a desserted bogie which was supposed to be attached to teh train that wud take us to vijaywada.. i donno how many times mom prayed that day but it really worked and teh bogie was by god's grace added to teh train.. thn on journey was smooth.. but here... some1 else is also involved.. my dad... cut 2.. location hyd... those were teh days without any cell phones or easy acess to telephone... my dad found from our neighbours in assam taht we had made arrangements to take plane to calcutta... we went missing for 2 days! there were announcements for mrs nalini and miss vichika on guwahati railway station,guwahati airport, calcutta railway station, calcutta airport, vijaywada station... dad was worried to core... when we reached vijaywada after our ordeal.. we called him and he was relived... phew! some exp..
:P .. i get carried away when i think about my days @ assam.. bas this episode ends here.. phir milenge agli blog main :D

School chale hum...

savere savere...yaaron se milke ban than ke nikle hum..
badal sa garje hum, sawan sa barse hum..
suraj sa chamke hum... school chale hum..school chale hum..
oho oho ohhohoho..hooo......
so, am going bac to school.... used hate it whn amma called my college school... n now am going to a grad school!!
my 22 yrs long holiday is coming to an end in another 22 days....hope everything works out well....will definetely miss my lazy days :D ..

sushil kr shinde 

Acharya Nagarjune University 

My sir Arthur Cotton gold medal 

Amazed, Puzzled, Confused...

Just saw BLACK.. well can't say black, saw teh second cd in a rush with FFs... but still... it was good...... i did read helen keller's "story of my life" a bit, but this one was some wht different....shud mention, teh small girl was better than rani :d
was amazed by teh will power and determination of teh girl, was puzzled if such people really exist, was confused about myself....... wht am i achieving with my eyes, ear and voice!!!
teh movie did bring in teh same feelings which i experienced whn i first visited a blind school with ashmita[(hmmmm......those sweet days!! the fun-filled class,writting 15 pages (i am talking abt teh looooong answer sheet like pages!!) long letters to anna, teh pride of owning a keyboard (its been about 5 yrs since i've played it:(), the weird feeling of sophistication of dining in teh air force officers's mess (atta hated me for taht :d), tht scenic NEEP,teh thunder&lightening full rain, the music competetions with my neighbour (wonder wht hez doing now!!), the non stop bathroom singing,(well this is still there:-P), those desperate rounds to children lib in colony trying to get myself interested in reading detective novels and ending up picking books on fashion n cooking :d!!, those lunches @ BBC (still can't figure out how i ate tht american choupsey!!)........ ok ok jana tha japan pahoonch gaye chin :d
the blind school......... it was some experience, ashmita's family frnd was teh school's principal, he also is blind. Must say he sounded sooooooooooooo nice, i was really amazed how he cud manage teh biggest blind school in asssam so succefully, he taught us braille, (well we tried to remmeber but....... donno if ashmita remmebers anything), took us around teh huge campus, i was really amazed how teh blind studnets were stolling around in teh campus liek tehy knew each centimeter of it, i still remmeber teh guy who was walking around playing flute beautifully..... i was so overwhelmed i couldn't stop asking each student's name... we returned taht day with a strange feeling withing us.. hehehe i was also amazed by teh principal's daughter's red with white polka dots skirt:-P, ashmita told me she wore only mini skirts :D. even to school!!!( womder wht shez doing now ;))
Whn i was @ gayatri in vizag, teh bus i took to bac home frm college used to stop at a def and dumb school. one shud see to believe how they converse. I had decided either i wud change teh bus or wud learn sign language....... it really drove me crazy.. there were boys and girls, playing pranks on each other, flirting, fighting, laughing, teasing... doing everything "normal" with their sign language. I used to try so hard to understand wht teh joke was taht i always ended up carcking my head.... cudn't make out even one sentece in those 3 months!!!
now taht i hav mentioned asmita (tuk-tuk for clooooooose pals n family), lemme introduce her. Ashmita Paul was one of teh most intelligent 16 yr old i had ever met. there was something abt her tht reminded me of ashwarya rai teh moment i saw her. my entire class was fida on her whn she joined our school. ashmitaz doing her final yr MBBS at silchar medical college, assam and does not forget to sen dme a sms everyday....... but forgets my bday!!!!!!!hehehhe don worry ashmi. will deffo send u teh cowboy hat whn i get there... :D

Disconnected.....

never ever thought i wud miss anything like this.... being disconnected frm teh rest of world for some 3-4 days... INTERNET... donno whn n how it became an itegral part of my life... i know wht i missed.... ;)...
its really funny how some people try to act smart which actually proves how dumb they r... well happens to me also sometimes... but the sify technician who came over to set right my connection... papom.... :d
neways...
annaz bac. so r teh choclates, the chocolate dates... the lindt...:d
mera no. kab aayega :(

Wadda Year....

Another year,another chapter, another phase of my life comes to an end.... what a yr it was....... some serious growing up... hmm... turning 22 brings in a mixed feeling....... i always wanted to be 22 but now i feel so soon!!
My 21st year was sort of strange.. not my usual days.... guess it was kind of an interphase between the carefree vichi to a lil mature vichi(well... still not all tht mature) working, meeting the gr8 people (found a few ppl i wud really luv to b frndz with).. was a different exp. but basically i remain the same..
overall i was lucky this year....... got my diamonds :D, met some amazing people, got thru a no.14 ranked US univ... hope this coming year is as good n i get to go to TAMU..
This bday was boring but was full of pleasant suprises,was invited to a disco (!!), ppl i least expected to rememeber my bday wished me..... and ppl i thought cud never forget my bday forgot to wish me :( , n some frndz called me up n forgot to wish me !!! well life keeps changing u can't expect things to b same always (!!)
I really hope tht i don forget the bdays of all ppl who wished me whom i expected to wish.... basically every1 i know...

IN THE END LYRICS

Every song u hear.... always depicts some1z life and that some1 is most of the times you...

It starts with
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even mather how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down ’till the end of the day
Clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
You didn’t look out below,
Watch the time go right out the window
Tryn’ to hold on
Didn’t even know, I wasted it all
Just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it’s meant to be
Will, eventually be,
A memory of a time,
When I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter...
I had to fall, to loose it all...
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter...

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even mather how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To remind myself
How I tried so hard...
Dispite the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end...

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to be, will
Eventually, be a memory of a time
When I tried so hard,
And got so far,
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall, to loose it all
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far, as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I’ve put my trust, in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know...
I tried so hard,
And got so far,
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall, to loose it all,
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter

Bapatla Blast !!!

same roar whn i got onto teh stage.... same recognition, same love, same affection..... same homely Bapatla...
so finally got my third gold medal for god knows what eason. they shud announce it also i must say...
i seriously needed a tape recorded answer for "oh VICHIKA*excitment*. what r u doing now??"
neways. felt happy tht i was still a known person on campus... specially whn teh poor anchor of MAA TV's JOSH had to stand while i n muva were given seats:-P!!..
got to know 2 really interesting things:
1. sriram yeah our very own "phew!" sriram. yea hez got into Tollywood. yeah u heard me rite tollywood!!! goeology sir told me tht he was seen in a TV prog.... "PHEW!!!" i can't wait to tell this on the grp!!!.... hehhee was wondering where our own star had disappeaerd.. must b busy"!!!!!"
2. shyam. yea our prabhu deva.... got thru gate. yeah yeah gate. fel t soooooooooooo happpy for him.. i can't wait to put this on teh grp. yeah will mail today!
everything else is so much same in dept. except tht all sirs now av color mobiles.. n r krishna rao is now teh dept lib incharge. hahahaha yea added responsibilities.. hehehehe..... sir baap bane wale hain!!! n sweet satush sir is still teh same... sweet.
felt bad tht cudn't spend much time with RV sir. oh i miss talking tohim so much.. but had to b with mahi . she wud sure hav got a lot upset. managed to split my time btwn auntie n mahi..... auntie is such a sweet heart....
n god knows how tht ash don got into CTS!! i just cudn't believe ..... i hope god knows wht he is doing.. well i shudnot say this but still... ok mayb she was rite in her own way... naaaaaaaaah i don believe this....
neways...
GEBz come out so well. looked so good. omkaram garu was asking me how was it. felt so nice!! n the kalyana mandapam..... awesoem....... but errr said tht without going inside:-P... RV sir said whtz teh diffeence btwn u n a common man if u say tht just by external looks :-P
i just wish i get my visa. n get a chance to spend some more time with RV sir b4 i go... :)

Hand Writting Speaks...

suddenly remembered my hand writting analysis.... dug it out frm my inbox n saved it... i feel its 90% right... mayb more...

Vichika

Vichika rarely shows emotions. She is very objective. Withholds her feelings. Judgement comes from her head rather than from her heart.
She is very acquisitive in nature. She is keen to acquire knowledge, ideas and education. Likes bit of philosophy in life.
She possesses high concentration ability. She has ability to focus clearly on one thing at a time. But at the first impression, one thinks vichika to be a very reserved person. She is socially very choosy. She has very few close friends. She does not open up unless she becomes very close to some body.
She has the desire for culture. She likes traveling, adventure, music and fine food. She has fluidity of thought. This signifies the ability to follow and change thoughts smoothly. She is a very good conversationist, speaker and writer.
She is a comprehensive thinker. She has lightening fast mind that can size up situations instantly. She is curious but impatient. She is quick, investigative and exploratory thinker. Gets irritated by slow talkers and doers. She is however self reliant.
She has good imagination ability. Has got the ability to visualize and see things clearly.
However, she suffers from low self esteem. She is very sensitive to criticism. She can’t bear some body criticizing her and gets upset with it.
She has bit of temper, irritation towards others. Some times tends to set unrealistic goals..

Overall, Vichika is a girl with vision. Lot of concentration, imagination and clear cut plan for her life. Due to her low self esteem, she under estimates her self and does not give credit to herself for her success. She seems to be reserved and does not mix up with people too quickly. She does not express her emotions and feelings voluntarily. She needs to develop leadership abilities which are missing.
She is a good speaker, conversationist and a writer.
Overall, a wonderful personality.

whn life seems to end....

went to this very very very boring party....just mechanical ga velli tinni vocham:(....
didn't want to go but cudn't say no to teh birthday gal.kahan rtc x roads kahan jhills.... but it was nice to b bac at crystal after a loooooong time (remember my 10th birthday party !!....ashwin anna in formals!! gosh half hyd was stunned n thiose pics were sold out!!) but this tim eit was not the same....in these some 10 yrs RTC x roads has changed like anything ...used to spend all my summer hols in amammaz apartment there par abhi it look sliek a totally new place....mom told me to get into 45 n come to ameerpet n frm there in an auto, instead of teh via koti route rohini sggested, rohini dropped me @ the bus stop n i was there waiting in a completely strange place for abt 20 mins.........no 45..........my heart beat started raising......it was abt 8-45pm.first time i was all alone in a bus stop at tht hour...probably it was tehfear of loosing my gold medal frm my purse (yea the same purse frm where i lost my dearmost cell)....thn finally thot ok whichever bus comes next i am going to board it n i get a 1 to stn ok will atleast get a 47 or 10H..... but i was not sure i fu get any bus at abt 9-30pm...awww......but i didn't want to get into an auto!! thn finally after an anxious 1/2 hr i get this 2 10z n a 47 Y to filmnagar....i ran like a hell from th 10H stop to the 47.....god knows why i got so scared .....i started breathing so heavily.but was relieved called up mom who was twice as anxious n told dad to pick me up frm teh bus stp.....i thot my breathing will get normal whn i get bac home...it didn't. stayed out in the cool breeze for long hoping it will get normal....it didn't.....finally thot sleeping wud help......managed 2 hrs sleep thn cudn't sleep anymore........walked all around the house tried drinking water no use.... mom woke up n was scared.......thot of taking me to doc.i didn't feel the need of a doc ...thn amma did some home remedy..... it helped a bit but thn suddenly i got so scared ..donno why but i got really scared thot i wud die tht very moment god knows why i felt tht way but i did....thn thot me n my imagination.....kani tht very moment in momz arms i was life oh god my folks can't live without me..n will i die without getting an admit frm UC?? strange me!!
thank god it was just just for a few seconds, else i wud hav died of fear.....donno whtz gone wrong with me after coming to hyd..my immune system has crashed.... i am so easily infected.....1/2 hr in pollution n am dead...with throat pain suffocation n wht not....
wish i die without suffering n i wish teh same for all my dear ones...

ANU - XXVI COnvocation

Finally teh day arrived when i got to wear the robe n all.........quite a feeling i must say. Sushil Kumar shinde the governer was all set to give me my "Sir Arthur Cotton Gold medal" for being first in university for civil........too bad they didn't give it out to all branches, i was lucky to hav a donor...some sweet fellow frm vijaywada. the funniest part of it was "Bramhi uncle" got a honorary degree"Doctorate of letters' he was so excited (at least i felt so).. n wht honours tht nageswara reddy has....... baap re i just wish i get at least one-tenth of them in my lifetime...
When Princi (incidentally Dean of faculty of engg) called up my name my heart started beating so fast....am i good enuf fo rthis medal???...the same question poped up.....but thn the cameras tookover.
the whole exp was good i was among the 4 engg students to get gold medals.......the rest frm sciences, arts n law streams wore 2-3 medal each....cudn't believe ppl did Phd in law....enta opika!!
but cudn't go to Bptl.....:(, but will go in april to get another medal:)

cold cough and chakor bali...

what a weekend.....starts with amma scolding me for skipping the gym, continues with a new project at office(another water distribution:( (really wonder if the ppl out there wud ever get water from my distribution system .....hope for the best!!), n thn to add the spice cold and cough.........thn chakor bali......wadda movie(oka mukka ardham ayte vottu!)
after almost ages all four of us went for a drive to.......no points for guessing the place....cognizant n durgam cheruvu....tried talking anna into subway kani no luc dadz always furious abt eating out.... anna suggested while returning frm temple early morning kani thn dad had made gajar ka halwa...:D,n now whn we were abt to order pizza annaz frnds called him out X-(.... no luc @ shopping either god knows when i will get a new pair of shoes....its been so long since i hav got tht perrfect pair the last one was the italian sole wala leather shoes,i still hav it but u can't wear the same shoes for 2 years!!!
still working on my TAMU Vs Clemson dilema, hope to solve it soon......
arjun annaz wedding fixed n in nov n tht too in hyd!!!..hopefully i won't b here aaaah i made so many plans of going bac to the east.....being in kolkotta agin wud hav been so much fun, cud hav caught up with ashmita....parrr ok....socha tha bengoli bhabhi se kanthas of bengal demand karenge, misti doi khayenge, sondesh n all the oodness of bengal....lesse...chalo kuch bhi ho i am happy tht arjun annaz getting married at last, hav been waiting for this moment for so long, chalo acha has some link with east bana rahega..but the to-be -bhabhi looked so.begoli......hahah funny but the moment i looked at her pic all i said " she looks so begoli" amma said bengois bengoli nahin dikhenge to kya hum tum dikhenge...true.......par socha tha arjun annaz choice wud b different he being so philosophical. sophisticated n all thot his coice wud b some very different girl..tho i donno a thing abt binitha but still ......... too bad i cudn't get thru wisconsin, wud hav had chance to b with thm

aaaaaaaah jana tha japan pahonch gaye chin.......wht did i start writting abt n wht am i writting!!!
chalo kafi hai aaj ke liye

203 reunion

203 reunion........thanx a ton subaniji for going out of town n letting me slip outta office to get together with my dearmost frnds.........
phir wohi sor phir wohi gana bajana wohi counters, wohi titlu wohi masti...........supercool. lived good ol hostel days again for 2 hours. in jsut thanx to my stars mahi was here for some paper presentation so caught up with all news frm hostel...........all ash -nonash gola all teh "interesting SFI" stuff.......
Bechara Sridhar was confused if he had come to his home or somewhere else(hehe)
n teh wedding pics......vani n her time with pics!! n there was this pick we all want to lift......the pic with me all over. i don rem why i was in teh front leaving teh bride n groom in teh background (heheheh me!!)
bac home @ 9-30 pm after 5 calls frm worried mom (first time so late!!)
cut 2 location change:office
saleem sir-kal saab hyd ko 5 baje aagaye teh na APUSP gaye the......
me: awwwwwwwww wht if he found out i was not in APUSP!!!!!
thn suddenly, subhani sir: amma veechika!!
grrrrrr he found out:((...............aww jaldi jaldi veechi kuch socho!!
bang!!
subhani sir:is this teh letter they gave u....was it like this whn they gave u??
me::: awwww i kept it in my bag sir, marchipota ani:)
subz: u shud take catre of such imp letter blah blah blah.............
((hahhahaaha.........)) ok sir!
neat na!!
am just waiting for this TS...may b by early next week wud get it n bas with teh draft letter apna resignation letter dedungi:) hav been thinking this for last 2 months
now therez this road project amam asked me to do...
dekhenge....miles to go before i sleep

By myself

What do I do to ignore wats behind me
Do I follow my faith to escape blindly.
Do I hide my mind I away from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening.
Do I let it go and try to stand it,
Or do I try to catch them red handed.
Do I trust some and give into phoniness,
Or do i, trust none and live life in lonliness.
Sunlight burns the skin of sleepy men,
I make the right turns but I’m lost w/in
I put on my daily full side but then
I just end up gettin hurt again

By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

Chorus:
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they’ll take from me ’til everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
[by myself]
How do you think I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid I’m out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside

bong bong....

aaj anna se baat karte karte went abt 10 yrs bac n woh tagore ka pyara sa poem yaad aa gaya......

JODI TEO DAAK SUNE KEO NA AASHE
TOBE EKLA CHALO RE...
EKLA CHALO EKLA CHALO EKLA CHALO RE...
JODI TEO DAAK SUNE KEO NA AASHE TO BE EKLA CHALO RE..

JODI KEO KOTHA NA KOI...
ARE O RE O ABHAGA...
KEO KOTHA NA KOI...
JODI SOBAI THAKE MUKH PHIRIYE..
SOBAI KORE BHOI..
TOBE PRAN KHULIYE MUKH PHUTIYE
MANER KATHA EKLA BALO RE..

JODI TEO DAAK SUNE KEO NA AASHE TOBE EKLA CHALO RE...

i remember singing it at the Personality Contest at SPOORTHI,i had a tuf time translating it.the poem was basicaly meant for encouraging the freedom fighters to motivate them and drive all fears away.......jodi teo daak sune keo na aashe,(if no one comes when u call)tobe ekla chalo re(then go alone )..jodi keo kotha no koi(if no one speaks for u)jodi sobai thake mukh phiriye, sobai kore bhoi( if every1 turns away their face and every1 fears) tobe pran khuliye mukh phutiye maner katha ekla balo re(thn take courage and speak ur mind without fear.)
n teaching anila n vani the strange sounds of bengoli.....were fun..hostel life..miss it very much

Veechi's new space

Made a webpage for myself in geocities
http://www.geocities.com/vichikai/myspace.html
Will have to learn htmil for making better ones...

Ate jate....

Kal sara dil teen bar maine apni ram kahani likhi par har baar power cut aur bas...sayad mujhe itne jaldi apni autobiography nahin likhne chayiye....zindagi bahut lambi hain abhi aur bahut mod hain,bahut kaam hai, bahut time hai...apne 55th birthday pe start karoon to sayad theek rahega.........bhagvan na kare is beech mujhe amnesia aa jaye!!!
Mohabbat ki yeh intihaan ho gayi ki masti main tumko khuda keh gaya......bahut jaldi maan leti hoon main sabko, thts perhaps my weakest and strongest point. mother theresa kehti thi na" if u spend all your time scrutinising people u won't hav time to love them".....but i donno how practical this is but thts the way i am!! aur joey macintyre kehte hain" don't u ever wish tht u were some1 else coz u were ment to b wht u r now exactly...........believe in yourself you can touch the sky...!!" yeh sab to gane main achi lagti hain magar seriously sayad i wudn't like myself as much if i was not like this.......impulsive n bindas!!

Main aur meri tanhayi...

Main aur meri tanhayi aksar yeh baten karte hain...tum hote to aisa hota, tum hote to vaisa hota. magar do ireally want tht to haapen?? NAAH!!
khair, some1 told me don't will bad things to happen to you, so i better jeep my imaginations in place..