By myself

What do I do to ignore wats behind me
Do I follow my faith to escape blindly.
Do I hide my mind I away from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening.
Do I let it go and try to stand it,
Or do I try to catch them red handed.
Do I trust some and give into phoniness,
Or do i, trust none and live life in lonliness.
Sunlight burns the skin of sleepy men,
I make the right turns but I’m lost w/in
I put on my daily full side but then
I just end up gettin hurt again

By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

Chorus:
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they’ll take from me ’til everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
[by myself]
How do you think I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid I’m out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside

bong bong....

aaj anna se baat karte karte went abt 10 yrs bac n woh tagore ka pyara sa poem yaad aa gaya......

JODI TEO DAAK SUNE KEO NA AASHE
TOBE EKLA CHALO RE...
EKLA CHALO EKLA CHALO EKLA CHALO RE...
JODI TEO DAAK SUNE KEO NA AASHE TO BE EKLA CHALO RE..

JODI KEO KOTHA NA KOI...
ARE O RE O ABHAGA...
KEO KOTHA NA KOI...
JODI SOBAI THAKE MUKH PHIRIYE..
SOBAI KORE BHOI..
TOBE PRAN KHULIYE MUKH PHUTIYE
MANER KATHA EKLA BALO RE..

JODI TEO DAAK SUNE KEO NA AASHE TOBE EKLA CHALO RE...

i remember singing it at the Personality Contest at SPOORTHI,i had a tuf time translating it.the poem was basicaly meant for encouraging the freedom fighters to motivate them and drive all fears away.......jodi teo daak sune keo na aashe,(if no one comes when u call)tobe ekla chalo re(then go alone )..jodi keo kotha no koi(if no one speaks for u)jodi sobai thake mukh phiriye, sobai kore bhoi( if every1 turns away their face and every1 fears) tobe pran khuliye mukh phutiye maner katha ekla balo re(thn take courage and speak ur mind without fear.)
n teaching anila n vani the strange sounds of bengoli.....were fun..hostel life..miss it very much

Veechi's new space

Made a webpage for myself in geocities
http://www.geocities.com/vichikai/myspace.html
Will have to learn htmil for making better ones...

Ate jate....

Kal sara dil teen bar maine apni ram kahani likhi par har baar power cut aur bas...sayad mujhe itne jaldi apni autobiography nahin likhne chayiye....zindagi bahut lambi hain abhi aur bahut mod hain,bahut kaam hai, bahut time hai...apne 55th birthday pe start karoon to sayad theek rahega.........bhagvan na kare is beech mujhe amnesia aa jaye!!!
Mohabbat ki yeh intihaan ho gayi ki masti main tumko khuda keh gaya......bahut jaldi maan leti hoon main sabko, thts perhaps my weakest and strongest point. mother theresa kehti thi na" if u spend all your time scrutinising people u won't hav time to love them".....but i donno how practical this is but thts the way i am!! aur joey macintyre kehte hain" don't u ever wish tht u were some1 else coz u were ment to b wht u r now exactly...........believe in yourself you can touch the sky...!!" yeh sab to gane main achi lagti hain magar seriously sayad i wudn't like myself as much if i was not like this.......impulsive n bindas!!

Main aur meri tanhayi...

Main aur meri tanhayi aksar yeh baten karte hain...tum hote to aisa hota, tum hote to vaisa hota. magar do ireally want tht to haapen?? NAAH!!
khair, some1 told me don't will bad things to happen to you, so i better jeep my imaginations in place..